April 29, 2008. Big day, new life, second thoughts, on everything. It’s an amazing thing when at times you wonder, “Is tomorrow going to be here?” I’m sure that goes through a lot of people’s minds, at different times, but when you’re lying in a hospital bed with the knowledge that you’re going to get your head drilled into, and a grapefruit sized tumor has to come out, there’s a lot of what I’ve always thought of as “second thoughts’ racing through your mind (or half-mind as it seems).
As funny as it may seem from all of that, things actually seem to make sense. I’ve had a lot of things that NOW make sense, when there was no sense to it before. I’ve always thought that I believed that EVERYTHING happens for a reason, but for whatever reason, it took a big scar on my head to actually know that. You get something out of everything, good or bad. You have to make that decision, how that something is, but trust me, it can ALWAYS be worse, so that makes me think that something good can happen. That’s why I tell everyone, (and I try not to yell from my sandbox) if you get a “second chance”, GRAB IT WITH BOTH HANDS. If it changes your life, LET IT-CHANGE IS GOOD. No one said life would be easy, but damn, it is good, and when it seems to be coming together a little bit more, it has to change again! So o.k. change, bring it on!